praise the Lord!!! i've found a research for next semester!!! i'm so excited to work with dr. milletti! i'll be working in a lab that doesn't need to get dirty; all theoretical molecular theory (my fave!). i'll be working with computers and microtubing. maybe if this is awesome enough, i can make this my senior thesis. i can't wait . i was scared to ask dr. milletti, cuz i just did really bad on our last exam... but she was really happy to have me ask her! yay!

this week: 3 speeches (two in japanese and one in chem) and 1 midterm. freaking out....

only two more SG left

hello xanga, my long forsaken web blog!

it's backpacking for courses again. two days ago, i sat down and finally squared out what i needed to take - 14 classes! that means, yup, won't graduate until 2010. so the school decided to change the grad. requirements... so now some of my classes are just waste credits, like diff. eq.! it's okay... i guess... i do like diff. eq. i'll just have to take another math course to replace it; at least i'm  enjoying what i'm learning. i should really redeclear my majors and minor again before they change the requirements again.

i'm really excited about spending my summer in Japan. but at the same time, i'm really nervous. i can read, write, and listen, but my speaking is a whole different story. i had a few oral exams on monday and yesterday; i totally blanked out and did really bad. this worries me. also the fact that i have to find a way to get from Narita airport to the school, i'm gonna be so lost and confused!

i'm thinking of switching jobs; to what? i dunno. but i need to get a different job to aquire different job experiences. i applied to this CIA thing for next summer ('09); i have to apply at least 9months ahead! so hopefully if i don't have a research to do, working for CIA can be a out route... or just keep working where ever i'll be. i really want to give my parents some of my income permonth; maybe 20%? it's not much. because i am living at home, although no rent is require, i do want to contribute something.

i've watched this canto drama and there's song that's been stuck in my head:

Christine Glass - my love will get you home
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home. 
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home. 
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, 
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. 
Boy, my love will get you home. 

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home. 
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home. 
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, 
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. 
Boy, my love will get you home. 

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home. 
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home. 
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, 
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. 
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, 
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. 
Boy, my love will get you home, 
Boy, my love will get you home.

such fantasy. this i wonder, can i really love a person such that when he thinks of me that he'll be so moved as the song describes? the only One that i can think of can really love someone like that is God, but can we, as people who are sinners, do that? is the love that i use to love someone else ,which an cause him to be so move, the same love that God had shown and used to love me? if that is so, then isn't it really God loves that person rather than i love that person? sometimes, i wonder if i can really love a person without the feeling of "i'm gonna be hurt later."

off to math! yay math!